Every Avenue- A Story To Tell Your Friends

Dont go away again, I want to be more than a phone call at 4 A.M.

Seems like every time you come back home

Its just to steal my heart and leave

Dont go away again, I want to be more than a story to tell your friends

Seems like every time you come back home

Its just to make me fall again

for once in my life...

I have absolutely NO clue what I want. I'm at a loss. 

Valentines day

was real good this year. I wasnt it expecting it to be anything spectacular cause I dont really like valentines day all that much. But it surprised me this year. I had a photoshoot all day on 37th and 9th street in new york city. The studio was amazing. It overlooked the whole city. We had so much fun shooting and goofing around and what not. After the shoot I took a cab to brooklyn and hung out with anthony for the night and watched a lot of Roccos Modern Life which happens to be my all time favorite Nickelodeon cartoon. Thats basically it. Today i am going riding at 4. Hopefully it goes better then last time and my horse doesnt get into a brawl with another horse. Life is good.

AND Im extremely stoked on april 13-17 cause i am going to be spending 5 days in NYC taking a special effects makeup class called "5 Days with a Madman".

xxo

i just wrote out a huge long paragraph about a major part of my life that most people dont know, and then deleted it cause i dont think im ready to tell anyone about it just yet. but as far as updates go, these past few days have been pretty boring. except yesterday...i went to my moms apartment to go pick up some stuff i left there a while ago. she wouldnt answer the door. and i knew she was home because her car was in the parking lot, and since she doesnt have a job anymore, she has no where else to be other than in her apartment. i knocked on her door, called her, rang the doorbell for a god ten minutes. and the next thing i know, 3 cop cars pull up and they all came up to me. i told them that it was my moms apartment and ive been calling her and knocking but she wont answer. they believed me thank god lol. they all know my mom already cause of previous incidents that she got herself into (which i wont get into right now). so finally my mom comes to the door. her makeup is all over her face, and she can barely walk or talk straight. she apologizes to me cause she thought it was someone else knocking at her door, which i dont understand, because i kept calling her and she would have seen my name come up on her phone screen. but then again, she was drunk. after the police left i went inside with her. of course we got into an argument and i yelled at her. out of nowhere, this trailer trash looking guy walks out of her bedroom, and tells me i have a foul mouth. he, too, is drunk. me and this random dude that my mom calls her "boyfriend" had an ongoing argument. i wont get into detail about what he said or what i said. but i was furious with both him and my mother. 

one of these days ill take the time to start from the beginning about the story of me and my mom, and then maybe it will be easier to understand..but for now, im just going to leave it at this.

on a better note, me and jess had coldstone and starbucks tonight and we got harassed by two asian ladies with a guitar for some money to help save the children of asia, so i gave her a dollar. it was an extremely funny moment, but you had to be there :) i bought a cute jacket from h&m today with the money that was supposed to go towards my parking fine which was due today. o well. and tomorrow im going to the barn at 630 to go riding. thats about it.

OH and im extremely excited about the weekend. i have a photoshoot on valentines day in nyc and then going out to dinner with my best friend in the evening.

THE END

xxo

today..

was just perfect. i took the day off from class, just because. i got up somewhat early and got some starbucks and just hang out for a little..i got some work done on my arm today and its all finally coming together and looking amazing. i went riding tonight and had an awesome time. im going again this saturday and i cant wait. ever since i started riding again i feel like i found a part of me that has been missing. sounds lame, i know. but on the real, life just isnt the same without it! <3

i got sum sw33t shadezzzz!

this weekend wasnt so bad after all. it was actually really good. friday i had work till 7 and then i just stayed home and watched movies. saturday i started up horseback riding again now that i actually have money. its something that been part of my life since i was little and about a year ago i had to stop because it got too expensive and the barn went through an entire new management process, which made it complicated to ride there. but things are good there now which means i am able to ride again. i missed it SO much. it was basically my life, and now that i have it back, i couldnt be happier and im not going to let it slip away again. it was one of the things that i could actually say i was really good at. im so sore since i havent ridden in a while, but its a good kinda sore, if that makes any sense. so anyway, i spent a few hours at the stables and then went home to shower and then drove down to kaits. we went over to jays house for a little and didnt get back to kaits till around 430am. i didnt get to sleep till 530 though. the next morning kait brought me to MJM and i got two new pairs of betsey johnson shoes for SOOO CHEAP and they are sososo cute!. overall, it was a good weekend and things are beginning to take shape in my life once again.

oh and im going riding on wednesday after class which im excited about :)

xxo