im feeling all sorts of weirdness right now..today was just a giant emotional roller coaster (for lack of better words)...one minute i was happy, the next i was pissed at someone or something, and the next i was..bummed? kind of. whenever i feel like something good is happening in my life, i find all sorts of ways to think of all the negative things and overanalyze the situation and think "this is too good to be true"..and to think about the "what ifs". i bet none of this makes any sense. not sure where my mind is tonight.

xxo

Baltimore

I spent the weekend in baltimore and let me just say that i absolutely love it there and i CANNOT WAIT to move there in the summer. me and jess got there around 4 on saturday and we sat through traffic the whole time...resulting in this...

When we finally got into the city the first thing we did was go to inner harbor so we could eat at Chipotle..i never ate there before until this weekend..its my new favorite place of course. shortly after we picked up Ian in Essex and we all went to the "end of the year" show at some place called the sidebar. i was too tired to really enjoy the show but overall it was a good time. afterwards me jess and her d00d tom went to some chicks house cause thats where we were supposed to spend the night...but like 20 minutes later i left to hang out with sam at his apartment instead which is also in baltimore. i stayed there till morning and then met back up with jess and tom. we all went back to inner hardbor and ate at chipotle AGAIN and i showed them an amazing view of the city...which was shown to me by mark over the summer...i honestly dont think anyone appreciates beautiful things like this as much as i do...

  

we left baltimore and headed back to jersey shortly after and i literally just got home now. im so beat and my butt is sore from being in my car for 4 hours straight. im really bad at making my blogs sound interesting...but everything that ever happens in my life is always one of those "you had to be there" kinda moments..if that makes any sense.

me and jess also decided that we are going to start a pop kind of project..just us two...i really dont know how to explain what its going to be like...something kind of like this, not those kinds of vocals though... myspace.com/crystalcastles ...or even somewhere along the lines of "lights" ... myspace.com/lights ...i think you get the point. im way too excited

oh and this ones for you jess..

"GOD IM SO FUCKING PISSED"

"dont be pissed, that truck has 'penis boots' written on it"

xxo

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got a lot of shit done today...i went to starbucks and got peppermint hot chocolate this morning while i was waiting for jess to get ready...thennn we went to the mall and i went on a Mac makeup shopping rampage and saw raquel reed working at the mac place which i guess was pretty sweet..and random? uhm got a bunch of shit from urban outfitters and american apparel. after the mall i went to Lolas and had kurt do some work on my arm which i am EXTREMELY happy with..had work at 330 and blahblah blahhhh boring.

i redyed my hair tonight..im officially a ginger!!! fml. buttttttt i make it work.

so stoked on tomorrow and going to baltimore with my best friend. and even more stoked on possibly moving to baltimore in the summer with mark. lifes goood.

xxo

CHRISTMAS..

i spent most of the day sleeping/napping...and i got a ton of money from family and shit. tomorrow im taking the day off from class so me and jess can go to the mall. i really shouldnt. ive been missing a lot of school lately. i need to get my arm finished. its really starting to get to me when i look at.

AND this weekend is going to be amazing. saturday morning me and jess are leaving for baltimore for the weekend and coming back on monday.

i dont really know what else to write. my life is boring as fuck lately. i miss the summer and how i was always MIA and randomly traveling to all these different places and meeting different people...my life now is so different..everything is planned out for the most part..class and work all week..and just hoping that something good will come up on the weekend so i can get away from, well, life. i used to lead a lifestyle that was almost unrealistic and too good to be true. but now reality is catching up to me. i mean i cant really complain, cause my job at the salon is awesome and im doing exactly what i love and i make a decent amount of money doing it...but i miss the crazy adventures that i once had. thats all for now..

ps- i want this in life

xxo

basically...

i made this cause lately i find myself having the need to vent about a lot of shit. honestly i dont care if anyone even reads this or not. but for starters, im beginning to see who my real friends are, and whos worth keeping around, and whos not...which i guess is a good thing, but at the same time i feel disappointed and let down.. i bend over backwards and go out of my way for a lot of "friends"... and im starting to notice that im being taken for granted and walked all over. i fucking hate all you ungrateful pieces of shit. im done being a fucking atm for some of you people who are just too lazy to get a job! DIE, please.

on the bright side, its christmas eve..and im so happy i saw my family tonight. and my best friend jess. we made babiez tonight ;) and exchanged presents and what not. weeeeeee!

xxo